You would rather always wonder and wait and wish, than to banish them from your head at all. There is no closure in the world that would allow you to let this just wash away from you that easily. You become with content with simply having them in your life as an acquaintance than to live life without them at all. Somewhere deep, deep inside you know it’s not over. Why are they bothering you? Why are they keeping you around for silly conversation? What is the point if you have both moved on and are happy – why is it that you keep creeping into each other’s lives?Įven after all that has happened, you still ask yourself what is next. You wonder to yourself if you will ever work it out. You don’t even want to be with them anymore, but you can’t just leave them behind. Whether it is a random emoji at 2:00 a.m. or a full-out conversation to catch up on each other’s lives, you can’t help but wonder what they want with you. Every message, every “like”, every random chance that they communicate with you is just a reminder that you somehow crossed their mind. You are stuck in some kind of warped and twisted friendship that can only be defined by the word “complicated”.
Waiting on what, though? Nothing? Fate?Īnd even if you to talk, it is just a tease because you know that you are just are just in a standstill. Or perhaps you are already in their head? What if they are thinking of you? What if we are both sitting here waiting for someone to say something? Waiting. This helps for a while, until you think to yourself that you just want to be back in their head. You temporarily forget and they temporarily stop bothering you. Sometimes you want to scream “Get out of my head!” or “Leave me alone!” And it works. You have moved on, but part of them still sticks with you and you cannot explain why you care so much. While you can’t help but think about how happy you are without them, they still linger.
You can’t help but listen to that song that reminds you of them every once in a while. You are more than that because of the history that has built your relationship to this point.Įven when you are happy and have moved on from them, for whatever reason you don’t hesitate to check their Facebook page you wonder if they are happy or you hope that they see that picture you posted. You are “friends.” But oh, you are so much more. And just because they may not hold any importance to you any more, you still keep tabs on them – a conversation here and there, liking each other’s photos once in a while. Letting them go would mean that part of your life that you held onto so dearly would no longer exist. Letting them go would mean that you would allow yourself to forget about the impact they made on your life. No matter if you are on good terms or bad terms, there is hardly a day you can remember that they have not crossed your mind. Even though you don’t quite need them anymore, you can’t get them out of your head.įor some reason, you cannot let this person go. No matter what you do or how much time has passed or how many people you have dated since, they are still there. For whatever reason this person is unforgettable, irreplaceable, and relentlessly ingrained in your mind. I believe that everyone goes through an experience in their life where they meet a person that leaves an imprint.